Glossary additions

I’ve made some additions to the Glossary here, as I continue developing terms to describe my iteration of the common story of human suffering, which is explained on the About page.

the Great Apocalyptic Remembering


Understanding is merely Remembering, and re-membering is merely unLearning all we were lead to believe

There is a mass awakening underway as we get increasingly fed up with being lied to by people who are less awake than we are. We are putting ourselves back together so that we can act from a place of fully integrated mind, heart, body, soul and spirit.


unLearning is de-conditioning, and therefore Re-membering, and also Becoming, which is unConditioning

Everything we learned at school was an attempt at conditioning us to be worker drones for the industrial revolution that is killing us, our friends, and the planet. By de-conditioning ourselves from this education, we can begin to learn to heal ourSelves, and then others, and thereby the planet.

the Verse


the poetic Machinations of the cosmos

I don’t know whether we live in a universe or a multiverse or what, but I know I have found Rhyme and Reason among the tautological Chasm of Chaos.

It is my rhyme and my reason, but the Chasm is ours, which we navigate together. We cannot navigate it without each other, without each of us finding our own rhyme and our own reason.

The Verse is just one big poem, as expressed by the WordPress catchphrase “code is poetry”, which I have always founding endearing. To understand the meaning of the Poem, all we need to do is Read it,

using our intuition to ground knowledge in wisdom to Become, through Remembering, hoo and what we always were.

the Machinations

the seemingly ordered, seemingly un-ordered events and dimensions in the Verse Poem we live in

The Machinations could also be referred to as synchronicity ~ this is what we talk about when we talk about aligning ourSelves with the celestial bodies, which are inside us.

the Chasm of Chaos


the inherently tautological realm beyond and within our ordinary consciousness, entered by Dancing on the Hairline Fracture between Illusion and Illusion

I was pleased to learn, when researching ‘chaos’ for a hypertext thing that I’m making, that ‘chasm’ and ‘chaos’ are synonymous in Ancient Greek. In Greek mythology, Chaos was the first thing to exist.



Becoming is the process of Re-membering all that we had forgotten about what we originally were, and is therefore synonymous with “Self-realisation”

In the process of Becoming, we have to drop all ego-identification with what we believe, and with who we thought we were: ‘who’ is the human pronoun; because I am an idiot who thinks he is very funny, I reckon we should replace the human pronoun with ‘hoo’, when referring to what we really are, which is, at most, a verb.


the New pronoun for embodied Spirit



the grief we cannot yet own

in which I pondered
(with questions)
the approximation of alchemical transformation,
of suffering into joy,
this beautiful mo(u)rning,
answer free until the end of so-called illusory time

I cried in child’s pose just now, this mourning. I don’t know what it was really, except I was thinking about a friend I miss very much and who I suspect may be suffering with chronic depression. I dunno … it’s vomplicated. The tears were that kind that erupt from your face before you even really know what’s happening, emptying your belly of the soul vomit. I allowed it and continued to breathe, and moved out of Child into Cow, casting my Face upward in all of its glorious grief to be seen. I howled then, and grunted relief, gratitude, a bit more grief and then tim-ally … composure, a bit more grief, then something vaguely approximating equanimity. In Child, the grief had already transmuted into joy and I could somewhat sense that this, therefore, was not grief specific, but grief general. As far as I understand it, this is what they talk about when they talk about alchemy.

I had thought the grief might be for my friend, because that’s who I was thinking about in Child, but I wonder: do we ever really cry for anyone other than ourselves? I think we like to think we do, but this might be because it’s easier to cry for others than it is to cry for ourselves, but ultimately it’s a distraction, a deference, a displacement of owr/oun grief, the grief we cannot yet own. It’s a mutated and insidious kind of codependency.

I suspect that when we cry for others it’s because we see reflected, in them, something we don’t yet want to see in ourselves. I dunno.

Something I do know is I love this young woman very much, and I miss her terribly. I write to her sometimes, but she doesn’t write back and I don’t know why. I know she loves me too, and I know it’s not the kind of love you might be thinking due to our collective conditioning and the reality that English has reduced love to a single four-letter word, as though it were some kind of molecule that could be smashed at CERN. Maybe if they did put the word “love” in the Large Hadron Collider and proceeded to try smashing it into smithereens, those smithereens might shatter our belief systems like shrapnel in the pre-frontal love, I mean love! Shit, it’s like a compulsion over here … remember, the ‘v’ is right next to the ‘b’ on the QWERTY.

I dunno.

I really wish I did, but I don’t, and right now it shits me to tears. Because what I love about this woman is her qualities, not her vagina (which I have never even seen) … I love her innocence, her naivety, her addiction to boisterous laughter and wanton tomfoolery … I love her soul, her heart, her mind … she also has tremendous breasts (which I have never even seen) and can ski double black diamonds, both of which are utterly irrelevant …  what is relevant is that she loves to talk about poo ~ that’s why I miss her, really.

She is a self-described “poo person”, and she excels at doing awkward poos. (My handwriting now is turning the second Os into tiny little turds, soft-serve caricatures with stink lines latent, about to emerge into a stencil fart, no doubt …)

There is a passage somewhere in Milan Kundera’s The Unbearable Lightness of Being about how our lives will forever be characterised by kitsch so long as we continue to shit in cubicles. He describes kitsch as a reluctance to accept the unacceptable, such as a man crying in child’s pose. Personally, I not only accept this, but actively embrace it, and/but what seems paradoxically sad is that I no longer really know whether this is healthy or not.

It seems obviously healthy to express sadness if it is blocking you, if it is inhibiting your growth because you’re storing it somewhere hidden in your bodymind, but what if it’s not? What if you’re actually mostly existing now in a near-constant state of equanimity. IF this, THEN when you cry for someone who may just be a reflection of yourself, what if what you’re really crying about is your story, or maybe theirs.

Because your story is not you, right? We are told often by therapists, accomplished meditators, and in spiritual literature, that we are not our stories. But what if we are? What if there is no difference between the stories of our individuated soul, encased in human flesh, and the story of the cosmos, encased in what? Where does the universe exist?, and where therein do our stories fit?

I don’t fucking know, and it shits me to tears.

Something I do suspect is that this poo-person friend of mine may know more about the answers than she thinks she knows, for reasons I can’t go into right now. [I did just find this, though, an audio CD about “depression as a call to spiritual awakening”.]

All I hope <~~typo … All I know is I miss her painfully, and I hope know she’s doing okay.

I’m doing okay ~ at least I like to think I am, but I suspect that really I’m not doing okay until I uncontrivedly write, with this here B Staed,

I am being, okay.